Sunday, September 17, 2006
It has been almost five months with the love of my life. Recently, things were'nt really as smooth going as we thought it would continue to be. I thought we had the same dreams and the same passion in the things we were doing together. To me, it was something i really treasured coz i felt that we connected through what we shared in our passion for playing music. You are like my partner in crime, my twin, my right hand. Not having the same dreams would mean us going in different directions, which would lead to the fall of Doll Trash, (omg, sounds like history class) which would also mean us not playing together in the band. I'd feel like as if ive lost my other half, my motivation and my true passion for playing music in the first place.
Although we arent really as similar as we thought we were in our dreams, i know you still love your music and the want to strum for more riffs and tunes would never disappear. I know that DollTrash has made an impact for you, just like how it has for me. Im glad we didnt let the "problem" persist and the sadness to linger, unsettled. Im glad we didnt choose to let it get into our relationship, but coming to think of it now, i dont find any reasons to why it should.. :D
Im sorry i ever allowed my mood to be inflicted upon you. If i ever did in the past, ill tell you honestly now that i never meant a word i said. And i look up to you for putting up with me despite the fact that you couldnt understand me at times.. Well, neither could i understand myself.. Sometimes a little gesture would ignite a flame but, you know how i am.. And you try your best to make me feel better even though sometimes you fail.. :P Haha..
Youre my heartbeat.
You know i can never do without you. I always promise that id be a better gf but i gez im not doing my job as well as you are.. Well im not implying that its a job/chore to be a better gf.. :P I just want to express myself to you, and to let you know and be sure that i really love you with all my heart. All these obstacles coming our way, are just tests for us to go through.. Im sure we'd be able to kick its ass just fine! I promise that its only gonna make us stronger. Whether we're similar in our thinking or not, im still gonna love you wholeheartedly coz youre THE ONE for me..
I love you.
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